Thursday, March 6, 2008 '
hmm now in front of me is a vast of blue sky.. little clouds up there.. how i wish i could lie on the beach to look at it and not from the office table.. -_- hmm jus read smth and it made me think alot of stuffs n a long long time. it did brought tears to swelledup in my eyes... but whatever i'm saying now or how much i wanted, u and the past won't be back... onlyyou can make me so emotionally agitated. only you.. but nobody cares. i cant expressing out and it'shurting me more n more each time i think abt it. i feel guilty too... i kept asking myself this everything: "what the fuck am i doing? what the fuck am i doing? what the fuck am i doing??"but still it wont be the same anymore. even if now i say i believe u 100% whole-heartedly, u wont be back.. it's been over for 1 yr plus right?... time is so long yet passes so slow... i admit i did so foolishthings and it hurt u but that wasnt what i wanted it to be.. it hurts me badly to see u being hurt by me oranyone else.. i've decided to move on but will still think of you, always and always. but still, even if u dont see or hear this/it, i want to tell u again, "i will always love you, always. past, present and future. ilu." p/s: baron is a cute and funny boii boii!! hehehhee~~
