Wednesday, January 28, 2009 '
finally, this is my favourite skin!! simple yet B-E-Autiful! call me: lil miss sunshine!
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oh well, today's the 3rd day of CNY, and here I am slacking with the net... this yr's CNY is the worst I could ever get siol.. cannot celebrate CNY, like gg to relatives house besides nai nai's hse. and my luck is super low!! last week, in school gambled, alrdy lost around $20++ within 2 days. Then for the past 2 days, gambled with my auntie and cousinz, lost around $10? whatever I had at the beginning, sure will lose all at the end.. :( no luck siol sadddd and the next time which will make me even more sadder, is the 10 WEEKS BREAK!!! si liao si liao! I cant imagine how am I gg to spend this holidays, worst, i can't find any job!!!! kk off to find job now!! sianzz sianzz sianzz!!
Friday, January 23, 2009 '
whoa whoa whoa.. today's the last day of school and last day of 1st yr! well, it didn't seems like sia.. last day of class. I will miss W34E man! cool peeps and cool class... anyway, we gonna hang out right? loads and loads of outings~~~~ if nth pops up, next gathering will be on 23rd Feb, chalet at Aloha!!! woohoo~~~ most going to stay over, i betcha it's gonna be fun!!!! loads of fun and laughter~~~ dun mind me hurhh guys, if I go crazy! and of course, loads of photos are going to be taken!!! LOL can't wait man!! and oh, today and yesterday, some of us were gambling. LOL yesterday, I didnt lost much.. but today, i lost around 17-18 dollars? Maybe more.. -_-"' LOL no luck sia... boohoo... but nvm! loong kee say cny go his hse gamble!! haha hope I can go LOL!~~ and this time better ask him lesser the min. xp!
oh! I took loads of pics with this class and facis too! wanna see? go to my friendster! dun have? TOO BAD! LOL kidding~ so sianzz. hope I better find a job soon~~
off to bed!
Sunday, January 18, 2009 '
today is monday, first lesson for the 16th week, which is science. Sad D: faci han yao had to go off early, which is very early due to some problems.. sianzz. last lesson with him, he had to go. NVM i'm sure in future sure can see him again hee :)) anyway, got a stand-in faci. he's quite nice, got loads of funny and easy-to-understand examples for us when we don't know some things. and oh! he bought food too! LOL anyway, today's lesson was abit boring, as it was biology.. -_-Zzz but he made it into quite fun and interesting. heehee and amanda is now beside me eating and munching :D and oh! dingjie too is there munching :DD i'm ate le! LOL nah nonsense, ignore above! LOL and oh! i got a new game, from DJ! thx dj! heeheeheehee. the game is called "left 4 dead". wakakakaka. looking for this game for a period le. lalalalala. but i'm kinda scared when playing.. dark, scary,.... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LOL all the zombies so scary, will suddenly come out from nowhere... but nvm, i shall play till my fill LOL it's fun peeps!! heeheeheehee. off to playing that game!!~~ tata peeps!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 '
1 week had gone past after you go to a better place.. and the sadness had not gone away from me yet… AND I dun wanna it to be gone, cause I missed you. The whole process of you in hospital, icu, funeral, it’s still in my head, forever will be in my memories… before you leave, you were still asking for water and getting up. Even when you couldn’t talked, I know you’re feeling terrible lying there 24 hrs, without anything to eat or drink.. and like this, you go… I’m sorry yeye, you couldn’t even drink or eat ur last meal… But wherever u are now, I hope you’re happy. You will always be in my heart, be with me and with me till my last breathe… I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!
Sunday, January 11, 2009 '
Saturday was the day to chu bing and to cremate yeye’s body.. walked round the block, behind the van with my yeye’s coffin in it. Everyone was crying, including me. Then after that took chartered bus to Mandai, where the body will be burnt. Before burning, we went to hall 4, the priest did some prayers. Then when the coffin was being pulled to the burning area, all aunties and uncles cried.. of course I cried too.. not trying to say anything but, we all missed him. Something really made me think.. why now they let people see the deceased going in to the burning area? When we saw the process, everyone cried for him… I felt hopeless alright.. then I saw the coffin went into the fire place. At this point, grievances took over me… he’s gone, really gone.. can’t even see his body and face anymore… then yesterday + this morning, was the 7th day after he died.. went to nai nai’s hse for some prayer and see if he’s back. ALTHOUGH I would like to see him again, I don’t wish to be scared. LOL I know.. it’s ridiculous to be scared of your own grandpa, but?? Anyway, during prayer, I was standing at the last row, right behind, so I can directly see yeye’s room. At first it was closed, then slowly, it opened. I was thinking it might be the wind, so didn’t really care but still see. Then after that, it slam shut. I jumped of course, at that’s during the prayer. My cousin was beside me, and she also saw.. Then I told her, if the door opens again, shit man! But for daily knowledge, if u slam shut your door, the door will not budge even you pushed it, let alone the wind, unless u turn the knob… so I stared at the door.. Suddenly, it opened slowly! I was so scared that I started praying!! It happened twice but once the prayer ended, no more slamming and opening and closing. But too bad, we didn’t see any moth/butterfly.. yeye, pls rest in peace ok? I know u’re angry.. but RIP yea? I missed u a lot. Please come into my dreams ok? Or let me see u k? :)
Friday, January 9, 2009 '
Today’s the last day of funeral… had gone through a kinda long prayer.. relatives were crying.. why? Cause that was sort of the last goodbye to their father and grandfather… burnt offerings, and now bigger offerings like house, car and loads of money. I’m sure my grandpa will live a very happy life, hope that he will also have no worries. Hey grandpa, if need anything, come into my dreams and tell me k? I’ll try my very best to fulfill it or ask papa to do. R.I.P k? We and I will always miss u, love u and miss-love u!! Tmr is the chu bing day.. hope u will have a safe journey with us..
Wednesday, January 7, 2009 '
6th January 2009--- 3.12amthis is the day and time when yeye go... he'd been in hospital since 20th dec 2008.. since then, he wanted to go home badly.. but we cant do that. right now, i still cant believe he's gone.. everytime i woke up or not at the funeral place, i still feels he is still alive. and when i see his coffin and picture at funeral, reality have to come in.. I missed u badly yeye. and when u at the icu with the tube in ur mouth, u cant talk at all.. i know u are in pain, and wants to go home... how i wish u could talk to me again, tell me u want to go home, drink water, where u're in pain etc. it's heartpain to see u gasping for air, tears coming out.... And when u breathe ur last breath............ But yeye, now, please, rest in peace, really in peace. nothing to worry about ok? but very sorry for not fulfilling ur 2 wishes. we are all very sorry about it.. RIP yeye!! I LOVE YOU and will MISS YOU!!! T.T
