Sunday, January 11, 2009 '
Saturday was the day to chu bing and to cremate yeye’s body.. walked round the block, behind the van with my yeye’s coffin in it. Everyone was crying, including me. Then after that took chartered bus to Mandai, where the body will be burnt. Before burning, we went to hall 4, the priest did some prayers. Then when the coffin was being pulled to the burning area, all aunties and uncles cried.. of course I cried too.. not trying to say anything but, we all missed him. Something really made me think.. why now they let people see the deceased going in to the burning area? When we saw the process, everyone cried for him… I felt hopeless alright.. then I saw the coffin went into the fire place. At this point, grievances took over me… he’s gone, really gone.. can’t even see his body and face anymore… then yesterday + this morning, was the 7th day after he died.. went to nai nai’s hse for some prayer and see if he’s back. ALTHOUGH I would like to see him again, I don’t wish to be scared. LOL I know.. it’s ridiculous to be scared of your own grandpa, but?? Anyway, during prayer, I was standing at the last row, right behind, so I can directly see yeye’s room. At first it was closed, then slowly, it opened. I was thinking it might be the wind, so didn’t really care but still see. Then after that, it slam shut. I jumped of course, at that’s during the prayer. My cousin was beside me, and she also saw.. Then I told her, if the door opens again, shit man! But for daily knowledge, if u slam shut your door, the door will not budge even you pushed it, let alone the wind, unless u turn the knob… so I stared at the door.. Suddenly, it opened slowly! I was so scared that I started praying!! It happened twice but once the prayer ended, no more slamming and opening and closing. But too bad, we didn’t see any moth/butterfly.. yeye, pls rest in peace ok? I know u’re angry.. but RIP yea? I missed u a lot. Please come into my dreams ok? Or let me see u k? :)
